Waiting is already torture

So I have been trying my hardest to stay busy, keep distracted. I have also tried helping other people from my fertility forum with all of their research and concerns on the different routes they are taking....but today....I started panicking about the next scan - which is on wednesday. I guess two days before hand is about standard right?! Especially in my early 'novice-at-waiting-for-scans-through-surrogacy-days'...

I just am so worried that something is going to go awfully wrong and it's all going to be over before it's really begun....

We were both ecstatic that we only had two gestational sacs and it was an extra thrill that they were two singleton pregnancies, as it's exactly what we wanted. But now I'm worrying that we could lose them both in the first trimester and be back to square one and super heart-broken? :(

Oh I need to try and calm down, I know you've all been there or are about to go there so I thought this the best place to have a panic!

On other news....we are getting married in August! I finally sent out the hand-made invitations today to all ends of the Earth (my partner's family live in countries in Africa, Asia and Europe). I have also finally got round to booking my wedding dress fitting and I am starting to get super excited/nervous/worried/amazed by the prospect of marrying my lovely man. Hopefully we'll look like this....

And never end up like this....

Hahaha...

Hope everyone is well and happy and not as terrified and neurotic as me about this whole surrogacy malarky!